2016 | New Years Motherfucking Reinvention

Photo courtesy of Sarah Black Photography

Photo courtesy of Sarah Black Photography

If 2015 was my year of growth, 2016 will be a year of reinvention.  A year of exploring myself as an artist, as a mother, as a lover, as a friend, as myself.  I want new challenges, I want new experiences, I want new adventures and I want to flourish in ways I never have.

It will be a kicking goals year.  A project based year.  An experimentation year. 

Family photography is my backbone.  It’s my lifeblood.  It puts food on my table and a roof over my head.  It means I can give my little boy and my family experiences and adventures. It is rich and satisfying work and if anything, this will grow in 2016 as I carve out more time dedicated to my business and my craft.

In 2015 I gave myself permission to do things my way; to grow into my potential as an artist and as a human being.  Giving myself that permission brought an abundant, successful and meaningful business where I have been able to confidently say, this is who I am and this is what I do and I am WORTH being paid to do this for you.  It brought me the man I have been waiting my whole life for, the man who was waiting at the end of all the hard with wide, open arms and the most loving, caring, beautiful heart.  The beard was a bonus.  2015 brought me clarity to be the kind of parent my instincts have always told me to be, and the confidence to be that for my son.  It brought richer, more meaningful friendships.  It brought oxygen for a once debilitating anxiety disorder. 

Giving myself permission to grow into who I am has been life changing, and it has brought the realisation that this is a constant process, a constant wave to ride, and that it can be a beautiful ride if I stay present and open to it.

I feel like I am in a place of real self-awareness, a confidence I have never in my life known before.  It’s exciting to think I can be anything and anyone if I give myself permission to be.  I don’t need to ask permission or seek validation from anyone else, which is something I had done my entire life.  I choose to surround myself with people who lift me up, believe in me and support me.

So, 2016 is the year of motherfucking reinvention.  There is no room for fear.  No mucking around.  No tentative baby steps.  I will jump headfirst into all the things that I always thought were out of reach to me.  They aren’t.  They are mine for the taking.

One clear goal I have is that I want to be published in one of the many magazines I have collected and devoured over many years.  Frankie, Yen, Kinfolk, Peppermint and more recently, Hello Lunch Lady.  I have savoured the pages of these magazines and always admired the people behind the photographs.  What a job.  How satisfying that must be.  Never even considering that perhaps I could be that photographer.  I can be, and I will be.

I have dreams of publishing a book, and I know this is the road to that dream.

I am going to be taking part in the 100 Day Goal via The Business Bakery.  The idea is you set a goal, to be achieved in 100 days, and list 100 things you can do, one a day, to reach that goal. 

In 100 days, I will be published in a magazine.  I will write a separate post for this.

I want to read at least a book a month.  Knowledge is the key to growth, so I am choosing books that align with where I am at right now, that will challenge me and that will guide me in all areas of my life - art, motherhood, relationship, spirituality.  I have been so slack since Archie was born and I really want and need to make time for this.

A separate post to come on that, too. 

I want to explore collaborations with other artists.  I have some exciting projects in the works with creatives that I respect, love and admire and I can’t wait to dive into these head first and share them with the world.

I want to finish developing my Life: Unmade e-workshop and share it with my photography community. 

I want to work on some personal photography and writing projects.  I am very conscious about leaving behind a legacy, and I want to photograph and document people, places and spaces that have deep meaning to me, that I can share in a way that allows people to see how I see the world around me.  I want these projects to be heart-led, free and unbounded. I have no real plan for these, other than to take my camera with me more and to start seeing my own life as something worthy of documenting beautifully. 

New York City.  A travel destination that has been on top of my list for my whole life.  It has a magic and a pull that I cannot explain, and that's the best kind of reason to go anywhere, I think.  I just know something incredible awaits me there if I just show up with my camera and an open heart.  I would love a collaboration or a project to get me there.  I will get there.

I want to continue inviting richness, depth, gratitude and love into my life, and sharing it in new ways through photographs, writing and meaningful projects.  

Whether you set resolutions/goals or whether you opt-out of the whole "New Years Bullshit", I wish all of you an incredible, challenging, rich, full and awesome 2016. 

Peace and smiles,

Amy x